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joke on me. Ever since I was a child I have needed the peace and quiet of morning. Everyone in my life, since I became an adult, has respected this. No one calls me, no one dares intrude for any reason, before noon. Frida made herself the exception. She was an exceedingly garrulous cat. She set out every morning to tell me the latest instalment of her sad, heartrending tale, six or seven lives long, and she chatted steadily for an hour or so. When I was thoroughly rattled, she stopped, went upstairs, and took a nap. This was our entirely inauspicious beginning. Being an activist means I travel, a lot. Sometimes to other cities and countries, but also between my city and country homes. I took to carrying Frida, when I could catch her, with me. I have memories of careening around mountain curves with Frida, terrified, stuck to my neck. I was unable to endure the piteous cries she emitted when I secured her in a cage. When not stuck to my neck or in my hair, she sought safety underneath the brake pedal. I eventually resolved to leave her in the country – she hid when she saw me packing to return to the city. I did this reluctantly, acknowledging defeat. I asked M, the caretaker, to make sure she had water, food, and surrogate affection. Time passed. Sometimes I would be away for a month or more. When I returned, Frida would have taken up at a neighbour’s house. After a few days, she’d return. Distant and cool. I would struggle to renew our bond, ­beating myself 140
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up in my guilt. By the time we were back to the point of Frida’s warily permitting a tentative stroke, I’d be off again. Sometimes when I came home, she’d be hiding in the oak tree by the drive, or in the bay tree off the deck. If I brought anyone with me, she’d sit and watch us but never deign to appear. Sometimes when I returned, she’d simply cry. And cry and cry. It was a sound that went straight to my heart. And yet, this was my life. I thought perhaps Frida would one day simply get tired of it and leave me. She is very beautiful, very smart; I didn’t think it impossible that she would, on her own, find a more suitable home. There were also times, after cleaning poop off the rug or the guest bed, that I wanted to help her relocate. More time passed. One day I noticed that Frida understood English. If I said, ‘I don’t want you to lie on my chest because there’s a book there at the moment that I’m reading,’ and if I patted the spot by my thigh that was okay, she immediately settled there. If she knocked at the window and I said, ‘Just a minute’, she’d wait before coming to the door. I noticed that instead of dodging my caress, she sought it. On our walks, if I sat down to enjoy a view, she did too. Around that same time, I stopped criticising myself constantly for not being home all the time, or even most of it. If I was in too bad a mood to stroke or brush her and if, God forbid, I forgot to give her milk, which 141

joke on me. Ever since I was a child I have needed the peace and quiet of morning. Everyone in my life, since I became an adult, has respected this. No one calls me, no one dares intrude for any reason, before noon. Frida made herself the exception. She was an exceedingly garrulous cat. She set out every morning to tell me the latest instalment of her sad, heartrending tale, six or seven lives long, and she chatted steadily for an hour or so. When I was thoroughly rattled, she stopped, went upstairs, and took a nap. This was our entirely inauspicious beginning.

Being an activist means I travel, a lot. Sometimes to other cities and countries, but also between my city and country homes. I took to carrying Frida, when I could catch her, with me. I have memories of careening around mountain curves with Frida, terrified, stuck to my neck. I was unable to endure the piteous cries she emitted when I secured her in a cage. When not stuck to my neck or in my hair, she sought safety underneath the brake pedal. I eventually resolved to leave her in the country – she hid when she saw me packing to return to the city. I did this reluctantly, acknowledging defeat. I asked M, the caretaker, to make sure she had water, food, and surrogate affection. Time passed. Sometimes I would be away for a month or more. When I returned, Frida would have taken up at a neighbour’s house. After a few days, she’d return. Distant and cool. I would struggle to renew our bond, ­beating myself

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